I live in Maine, and I’m fifteen. I know my reasons aren’t incredibly horrible, but they’re taking a serious emotional toll on me. I’ve been through a good amount of roughness in life at this point, and my parents aren’t making things any easier.
My mom and I don’t get along at all. She yells constantly, even when I have hardly done a thing. Everything is an argument with her, and it always turns into a yelling match, even when I do my best not to yell back. She says just the right things to push me over the edge.
I know I’ve made mistakes in my past, but instead of letting me learn from them on my own, she grounds me for weeks, or even months. Then, she refuses to let me live it down, and will hold things over my head for years. Literally. She is still holding a mistake over me that I made when I was thirteen. She also, even after four pregnancy tests and getting my period twice, will not stop accusing me of being pregnant, and thinks I faked the four tests. She made me to go the doctor today to get a test so I couldn’t fake it, as she thinks I’m doing.
At times, she won’t even seem like she cares whether I’m alive. I used to have a cutting problem (Please don’t tell me it’s stupid. I understand that. I’ve stopped, and have been clear since November of last year), and when she found out, she yelled at me that I was stupid repeatedly, then left the room and said nothing again. Never tried to get me help, never even checked to see if I was ever still doing it. Never once has she brought it up again, though, now, she stares at my scars and gives me disgusted looks quite often. I’ve tried to get her to let me speak to a therapist in the past to see if I have Dythymic Depression, which I feel like I may have, after reading the symptoms. I want a professional opinion, though, just to find out why I’m always as depressed as I am.
Her and my father split up when I was two, I had a step-dad from age four till age thirteen. Throughout the course of the last two or three years of their marriage, she had a few different boyfriends, who she would bring my younger sister (age 9 currently, age 6-7 at the time, who’s father was my step-dad at the time) and I around these boyfriends quite often. I may be wrong, but I don’t believe that’s a healthy thing for my little sister, and even though I was older, it can’t be the right thing to do still, correct? We now have another step-dad, my sister’s first, my second. We also have two little sisters, who’s father is our current step-father. My mother and him tend to gang up against me at times, and take sides against me, when I’ve hardly done anything (yes I’m sure it was not much. I’m not just understating my mistakes) and my step-dad, who has only been my step-dad for two years, likes to say “well, if you don’t like it, then I can just step in and say you can’t at all!” which I find sort of unfair, considering he’s not my father. Shouldn’t only my actual parent be able to say these things?
I know the requirements in my state for emancipation. I have a job, (Dairy Queen, but still a job) and my boyfriend’s father (please do NOT say that a boyfriend is not someone a fifteen year old should be living with) has offered me a place to stay as long as I pay him a little rent each month and pull my weight around the house. I have no problem with this at all. I have a plan for my education, as well. I’m going to finish high school, then I’ll be going into the coast guard or air force to pay for college. I know I must also be sixteen, and I must speak with a lawyer and get a petition for emancipation, which I plan on doing as soon as I can do so. I turn sixteen this July.
Can anyone tell me if they think my reasons would be good enough for a judge?
Originally posted 2010-05-15 21:05:04. Republished by Blog Post Promoter